TTC after loss – bravery.

I have suffered through both infant loss, and pregnancy loss, and I do not believe that these things should be put in the same category. When it comes to TTC after those losses while both require an indescribable and infinite amount of hope, and willingness to put oneself in a position to be hurt again, both experiences are very different.

Loss in general can prompt a lot of feelings and thoughts that we've never had to deal with before, anger and bitterness, jealousy and hopelessness, and all of these things are perfectly fine. It's common to be jealous of other pregnant women, and it can be hard to even look at them, let alone if they're friends of yours. It's common to have thoughts like "why me and not them? why do they deserve to be happy?", and it's common to feel a great sense of self-loathing for thinking those kinds of things. You're not that person. Grief is a strange experience, it changes us in ways we can't even imagine and in ways that we never thought possible.